bookcurios Chapter 721 I can’t think about it
Chapter 721 I can’t think about it
Song Anan actually already had a plan in mind at this moment. She was just speaking on impulse, but she didn't want to hurt the two old people, and she didn't want her to discover some of her thoughts.
After thinking about it, she comforted him, "Mom, I just said it casually. After all, I was so seriously ill before, so I was more or less worried. Don't think too much about it. I promise you that I will make a good living again in the future."
"An An, it's great that you think this way. Mom is really worried when she sees you like this. As long as you can get better, that's enough. If you suddenly say something like that, I'm afraid you won't be able to get over it."
"How could that be? I am your only daughter and your father's only daughter. I would never do such a stupid thing."
"That's good, that's good. I was just worried that you would do something stupid. Mom tells you, no matter what happens, your dad and I will stand by you and will be your support for the rest of your life, so please don't get upset. If anything happens, we can really start over."
"Okay! Mom, I want to go to the bathroom. Wait for me here."
Speaking of going to the bathroom, He Jinlin thought of what she had just said. She immediately stood up and said with a smile, "An An, I'll go with you. I just happen to want to go to the bathroom, too."
"Ah? Mom, you want to go to the bathroom too?"
Seeing her surprised face, He Jinlin felt something was wrong. She nodded and said, "Well, it's just right for us to go together."
"Okay! Let's go together."
After arriving at the bathroom, Song Anan found that He Jinlin was always staring at her intentionally or unintentionally, and she guessed that her thoughts were exposed.
She had no way to find a suitable opportunity at the moment, so she had to reassure her. After all, if she really left, she still hoped that she and Song Dawei could live well.
So after the two of them came out of the bathroom, in order to comfort her and prevent her from seeing her inner thoughts, she held her hand and said.
"Mom, don't we have a flight around 5pm? It's still early, let's go out for a walk. I haven't bought you and dad a gift in all these years, so I want to pick out a few gifts for each of you. I wasn't filial at all in the past, so I want to be filial to you two every day in the future, which can be regarded as making up for my past."
Speaking of going shopping, He Jinlin hesitated for a while. She felt that there were many people on the pedestrian street, and she didn't notice what she had really done. She had a vague feeling in her heart that something must have happened.
She said, "An An, your father and I appreciate your kindness. We are happy to see you like this. There is no need to buy gifts. If you can become like this, it will be the best gift for me and your father."
"Mom, don't be afraid of spending money. Although our family is a far cry from what it used to be, as long as we don't waste money too much, it will be fine for the rest of our lives. It's rare that I've gotten better, so I thought of buying some gifts for you and my dad."
"But mom..."
Seeing her hesitant expression, Song Anan had already guessed what she was thinking. She smiled and said, "Mom, are you worried that I'll find a chance to think about it?"
She said it directly and pointedly, and He Jinlin nodded and said, "Well, I just heard some of the things you said before, and I am a little worried. To be honest, if you really can't let it go, your father and I will definitely follow you, so I am really worried."
"Mom, you think too much. I'm your daughter. I've always been afraid of death. Don't you know this best? I just expressed my feelings. After all, I've had such a serious illness. I'm also afraid. What if something happens to me? So I'm worried about you and my dad. If I say this, you should understand, right?"
"I understand, but mom is still worried. You're not a parent yet, so you don't know what a mother feels. What if something happens to you? Your dad and I really can't survive. When you had the accident, and when you got sick later, do you know how much pain your dad and I went through? If it weren't for the fact that you're still alive and there's hope, your dad and I really wouldn't be able to survive. So, An'an, will you promise mom? Don't ever think too hard, because your dad and I really can't live without you."
Hearing what He Jinlin said, Song Anan suddenly felt very reluctant and unwilling to let her go. If she really left, what would they do?
Was it too selfish to think like that? But thinking about the past, bit by bit, it was really hard for her to let go, especially thinking about those dirty experiences in the past. She really couldn't accept it, couldn't accept her past, such a dirty self.
I felt that I didn't deserve to live in this world, so I thought about ending my life. Living no longer had any meaning to me. But if I really did that, I would still feel reluctant to leave my parents.
Especially seeing her like this, she felt really uncomfortable. Thinking of this, tears suddenly fell down and she hugged her directly.
I cried and said, "Mom! I'm sorry, it's my fault. I have hurt you and dad so deeply in this life. No matter what the future holds, I really hope that you and dad can live well. Don't let an unfilial daughter like me ruin the rest of your lives. If that really happens, I feel that I have sinned so deeply that I will never be able to forgive myself in this life."
Seeing her crying, He Jinlin also started crying. She said, "An An, your father and I only have you as our daughter in this life. Although you did a lot of wrong things in the past and we are helpless, we don't want anything to happen to you. We still hope that you can get better and live with us."
"Mom, how could I be so worthy of having parents like you and dad in this life? But the person I was in the past really didn't deserve it."
"An An, since you were reborn as our daughter, we have never regretted giving birth to you. Your father and I are also responsible for your outrageous mistakes. We did not educate you well since you were young. But fortunately, you have changed completely now. Since you have changed, you must slowly learn to let go."
"Accept the unbearable experiences in the past, start over, and greet a new day. So mom, please don't think too much. Let's face it together, okay?"
"I think since you have become a better person, it means that you are actually a kind person in your subconscious. That's why you have become a better person. No matter what, I believe you don't want us to die young. Do you really have the heart to let your father and I die for the rest of our lives?"
“Woo… woo… woo… woo… woo…”
Song Anan couldn't hold back anymore after hearing what He Jinlin said. She hugged her and cried. She really couldn't let go of her parents. She couldn't bear to see them die before her. She just thought of such an ending.
Her whole heart was twisted in pain. She didn't want to see such an ending, but when she thought about her past self, she really couldn't let it go, so her tense heart suddenly collapsed.