Lanling Ji

Chapter 23 [Same Feeling]

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Ye Lanling sat at the entrance of the cave, watching the rain outside the cave "tick" in a daze.Inside the cave, Ji Rulian stood by Yong's side, raising his hand from time to time to wipe the sweat off Yong's forehead.The burning wood pile "cracked", and for a moment, the world seemed to only have the sound of burning cracks and falling rain.

Ye Lanling looked up, watching countless needle-like rain pouring down, hitting the ground hard, and the original potholes were all washed away by the rainwater that accumulated into streams.

I'm serious... Ye Lanling slowly closed his eyes.I still remember that when I entered XD when I was six years old, my first partner was Jilu. For many years later, whenever Jilu recalled that encounter, he would always love and helplessly say to me: This is what God gave me love at first sight.But I have never understood it, I didn’t understand it before, and I thought I wouldn’t understand it in the future.Maybe, I just don't want to understand.That Jelu who has no beliefs actually believes in God.Perhaps, he just gave himself a reason and had to believe it.However, I can't respond to him anything, I hate hypocrisy and deceit.Since I was a child, others told me that the world is beautiful.I believe it.Later, I discovered how naive and stupid I was.Yes, I don't love Jiru, from the very first sight, I only think of him as a companion, the partner of the seventh team of XD.I don't love him, and I won't love anyone. In the vast world, I don't even love myself, so I don't have the right to love others.

Ye Lanling lowered his head, lowered his eyes, with a gloomy expression.I thought I was going to live like this until the end of this short life.Facing the coming of death alone, I closed my eyes and looked at myself alone, passing through the world in a hurry, and leaving in a hurry.There is no concern, no nostalgia, nothing to remember.This is the funeral I arranged for myself.However, all this has changed.

Ye Lanling bent over and hugged her bent knees.How could I like him, an ancient man whom I had known briefly.From realizing the existence of this feeling to confirming the reality of this feeling, nothing surprised me more than myself.A person who has known each other for several months, a person who has hardly known, an ancient person, if you can understand all these, but he is a man, I would actually like a man!Ye Lanling buried his face deeply in his sleeve.Although he is not against same-sex love, will he understand?Can he accept it?

Ye Lanling shook his head bitterly.It turns out that if you like someone, you will really have expectations for the other person, and hope that he will also like you, and hope that he expects you like yourself.He... He probably won't accept it. Ji Rulian must have been with him for a long time, and he didn't feel it. Maybe there is no homosexuality in his concept. Otherwise, facing the cute and straightforward Ji Rulian , How could he be indifferent.

Ah~~~ Ye Lanling pulled his long hair fiercely.How could I become so cranky, the most important thing at the moment is to wake up Yong, I am here alone in distress, I don't even have the courage to look back, I am so hopeless and useless!

Suddenly, a hand rested lightly on Ye Lanling's shoulder, he raised his head, and saw Ji Rulian sitting next to each other.

"Thank you for saving Brother Ba." Ji Rulian casually picked up a small stone beside him, and unconsciously scribbled on the ground.

"You're welcome." Ye Lanling withdrew his confused thoughts and looked at Ji Rulian's worried face.

"Forgive me for always yelling at you and hurting you, but actually I..." Ji Rulian wanted to say something, but stopped abruptly. He kept digging a pit with small stones.

Seeing Ji Rulian's hesitation to speak, Ye Lanling felt distressed for a while.Perhaps this young man has never expressed the feelings in his heart openly, he bears it alone, looks at him every day, but never sees himself in his eyes, that kind of pain of single-mindedness... Ye Lan Ling smiled bitterly, maybe he will do the same in the future, just looking at him is enough, but his life is not long, but Ji Rulian still has a long way to go.Probably, this is the only place where I am luckier than him.

"When I was eight years old, my elder brother was about to go to Yuwen Mansion for a banquet, and I stalked along with him. When I arrived at the mansion, I ran around and accidentally ran into Brother Ba who was practicing sword alone. I hid in the corner, secretly I saw him all afternoon. At that time, I was thinking, he is the person I am looking for. From then on, I tried my best to learn martial arts from my brother, just to help Brother Ba in the future and let him watch me Take a look." Ji Rulian raised his head and looked sideways at Ye Lanling, who was frowning slightly. To his surprise, he didn't see any contempt or contempt, and he didn't know if he understood what I was talking about.

"Do you know why I called him Big Brother Ba?" Ji Rulian smiled slightly, and continued, "This is the first time I saw my brother write his name. I thought it was difficult to read and pronounce, so I changed it to 'Big Brother Ba' without authorization." '. I still remember that my elder brother, Zhi and Yu Wenxian all strongly opposed it. They threatened me that I would be arrested and beheaded by Yong. But I still had a little bit of hope and shouted 'Bao' in front of Yong. Big brother'. I still remember that he just frowned at that time, but didn't ban the anger, so I kept calling him that. Every time I shouted 'Big Brother', I was always very happy, because this name only belongs to me, satisfying This little vanity of mine."

Ye Lanling listened to Ji Rulian's memories, but didn't indulge in them, he noticed some clues, "Brother Ji..."

"Call me Xiaoru, and I'll follow Shen Ning's name and call you Brother Ye. Hee hee, it's more kind."

"En, Xiao Ru." Hearing that Ji Rulian mentioned Shen Ning, Ye Lanling couldn't help worrying about how Ning'er is doing these days and whether she has taken good care of herself. She hopes to find Xuan Xunlian earlier and leave this dangerous place. "You just said that your brother knew Zhi and Lord Yu, so why did Yong suspect that I was your brother? Don't Yong know your brother?"

"This...it's more complicated to say." Ji Rulian picked up the small stone, "My brother is Yu Wenzhi's brother in the rivers and lakes, and they will not disturb Big Brother Ba if they have anything to do."

"Surprise?" Ye Lanling was even more puzzled, "You said just now that you would be arrested and beheaded by Yong? Can the current officials and officials execute people privately?"

"This..." Ji Rulian stared at Ye Lanling. After a while, he stood up and patted the dust off his clothes. "This is my way of speaking. I prefer to exaggerate, hehe." After finishing speaking, Ji Rulian Rulian walked into the cave, bent down to take care of the comatose Yong.

Suddenly, Ye Lanling, who was still puzzled, heard Ji Rulian's exclamation.

"Ye...Brother Ye, come here quickly!" Ji Rulian's trembling voice echoed in the cave, dry and cold, making people fearful.

Ye Lanling turned his head, and a strong uneasiness came over him.He saw that Yong Kai's palm, which was only bruised and black at first, was bleeding horribly at this moment, which was shocking.Ye Lanling stood up in horror, and fell down beside Yong, trying to stop the bleeding, but he didn't know where the wound was.Wasn't he injured?It's congestion, why is the whole right hand bleeding now.what to do?what do I do!

Suddenly, Ye Lanling took off his hemp-colored outer shirt, tore the clothes vigorously, and wrapped the temporarily torn cloth strips around Yong's hands.

Ji Rulian seemed to be frightened, and sat on the ground without saying a word, watching Ye Lanling whose hands were shaking constantly, and tied layer after layer of cloth strips to Yong's right hand.He had never seen such an injury, it was not a normal wound at all.Now that I think about it carefully, the huge monster just now is definitely not a creature of the world. Could it be that this place is really a place haunted by gods in the sky as the rumors say?Then why is there such a ferocious monster?By the way, there was also that strange and powerful thing that Ye Lanling held in his hand at that time, it was definitely not something from this world, could he really be a fairy?That's why he came up with an unprecedented way to jump over the big chasm.If he is really a god, then he will definitely be able to save Brother Ba.He must be a fairy, he is a star, a star that we have passed down for hundreds of years.

"Please..." Ji Rulian lowered his head and grabbed Ye Lanling's blood-stained hand, "Please, save Brother Ba, he can't die, please..."

"Like..." Ye Lanling looked at Ji Rulian, who was trembling with his head bowed, his tears dripped down on Yong's black coat, little by little, and the tears kept flowing.

"As long as I can save him, I am willing to exchange my life. I...I know you are a star, please...you must save him."

"Xiao Ru, don't worry." Ye Lanling patted Ji Rulian's shoulder reassuringly, "The bleeding has stopped temporarily, but I have never seen such an injury before, and I don't know what to do. I..." Ye Lanling choked with sobs and did not continue, he really wanted others to say these words of comfort to him.Seeing Yong's pale, bloodless face, his heart seemed to be ripped out.If this is a multiple-choice question, the answer is that he must take a person's life, how much he hopes that the person who dies is himself.I didn't understand this kind of pain that devours the heart and soul before, but now I have tasted it, it turns out that it is so painful that I would rather die.Seeing Ji Rulian's tears welling up, he was so envious of the grief that he could vent, but he was already used to bear it indifferently, and had already forgotten how to cry.

Ye Lanling patted Ji Rulian, who was gradually sobbing, and looked at the gray sky outside the cave where the rain had stopped. He stood up and looked at Yong, who was not injured for the time being. Muchai, take care of Yong here, and wait for me to come back."

"Brother Ye..." Ji Rulian called Ye Lanling who was already standing at the entrance of the cave, "Be careful, you must come back!"

Ye Lanling turned around, smiled at the worried Ji Rulian, and walked towards the gloomy forest.