windy cold

Chapter 52

"I didn't expect this day to come so fast. I changed my mind at that moment. I am not reconciled. Don't talk about being a monster. In the future, you will become a Buddha, and I will not be able to be with you. It’s fine if we don’t see each other again, I must convey my heart to you, and if I leave my mark in your memory, I will be satisfied.”

Zhuqing raised his head, his wet eyes were wide open, covered with mist, stubbornly unwilling to separate, the sun was dim in the maze, reflecting his eyes gray, desolate and lonely.

"All the things I have experienced for so many years will be deeply rooted in my heart. I am telling you this now because I have figured it out. You and I are not in the same world. I have no right to ask for anything that cannot belong to me. something, do you think so?"

Ji Chen stood on the spot, as stiff as a sculpture, his eyes were tightly locked on Zhu Qing's body, there was no expression on his face, and he didn't say a word.

"Do you hate me? I didn't expect that I would have such disgusting feelings for you, but you won't have to worry about it soon..." Zhuqing took a green bamboo-colored fish-carved exquisite jade pendant from her waist, and wore it close to her body all year round. He rubbed it until it became crystal clear. He savored the texture on it carefully and said, "This is a gift you gave me. I have never left my body since I received it. I will return it to you now, as if you and I have never left my body since then. It doesn't matter anymore."

He stretched out his hand towards Jichen, and the jade pendant in his hand lay quietly.

Ji Chen staggered under his legs, looked back and forth between the jade pendant and the green bamboo in disbelief, and said in shock, "You want to return it to me?"

Zhuqing nodded lightly, her hand holding the jade pendant remained motionless, her tone was cold, "Come here and take it with your own hands, this is my last request."

Ji Chen struggled: "Why must I be forced to choose..."

Zhu Qing said: "I have already made a choice for you."

In the closed labyrinth, there was a gust of cool wind blowing from nowhere, the distance between the two was only ten steps, but it seemed that they were thousands of miles away.

After a long stalemate, Ji Chen finally stepped forward and approached bit by bit.

Time passed extremely slowly at this moment, and each moment seemed to cut each other's hearts with a sharp knife. Lu Wanfeng knew that he was just a visitor who entered this memory by mistake, but he also felt that his heart was pulled together and he was very depressed.

Jichen's facial features were distorted and deformed, and the severe nausea and discomfort tormented him out of shape, but he continued to approach with difficulty but stubbornly, his eyes entangled with Zhuqing.

Zhuqing's eyes were stained with sadness, and the mourning became more and more intense. When Jichen touched the jade pendant, he closed his eyes, turned around and stopped, "Just leave it alone...ah!"

Ji Chen squeezed Zhu Qing's hand vigorously, as if with the strength to crush the bones, and pulled his hand to tightly wrap the Linglong Jade Pendant.

Zhu Qing looked back reluctantly, frowned and said: "You let go."

Ji Chen ignored him, grasped his hands tighter and tighter, and said without turning his eyes: "I was born as an abandoned child, and I have stayed in Chaohua Temple since the moment I can remember. It is the whole of my life... I often think about what kind of life ordinary children live?

In fact, I don't yearn for life at the foot of the mountain, because all my knowledge of the mountain is blank...I met you later, and you said that you wanted to be friends with me. At that time, you were as lively as an elf in the mountain, agile The eyes seem to be able to speak, I was dumbfounded;

You love to laugh, make trouble, and marvel at all the novel things in the world. In fact, I am not, but I am not as bright as you, and I am ashamed to express my emotions; under the Buddhist precepts, you will replace those things that I dare not try. I went to see and do it, seeing your happy or surprised appearance, as if I was trying it myself;

I know that I am dull and bound by all kinds of worldly rules. In fact, I also want to break free, but the expectations of my master, the expectations of people around me, these things weigh heavily on me, and I can't breathe. Only when I am with you can I feel relaxed and at ease;

In fact, the first time I went down the mountain to travel, the master gave me a one-year deadline, but I was greedy for the mortal world and found countless reasons to continue traveling with you. In that goblin encounter, you were injured and unconscious, and your demon power was weak. This is the first time I know your identity identity;

I was confused and hesitant. It was my master who enlightened me. He told me that people, demons and even all things are equal beings in the world. The only condition to distinguish good from bad is good and evil. Ye Zhu, and being as kind as you, you shouldn't be treated with strange eyes;

I will not expose you, or even cover for you. It has been more than ten years, and you and I have known each other for more than ten years. The deep friendship will sublimate when it reaches a certain depth. This is an inevitable and necessary change. Some people will sublimate into Love, some people..."

Zhuqing said with tears: "Love, yes, some people turn overflowing friendship into love, I am so unbearable, it is I who have polluted that sacred friendship."

"Ah Qing, don't underestimate yourself," Ji Chen pulled Zhu Qing over with a little force, and the two of them held hands and pressed them to his heart, feeling the strong and rapid heartbeat together, while their eyes were still firmly on him, and said sincerely, " That night, you turned your back to me, I couldn't see your expression, but I also had that strange feeling you mentioned, very strong."

Zhu Qing stared at him blankly, only to see that his face was flushed red, unable to tell whether it was from pain or embarrassment.

"I never knew what it was, and I never thought about it. I just know that I don't want you to be unhappy, I don't want you to have troubles, I hope to give you everything you like, and guard your share that makes me happy Envious character..." Ji Chen's lips trembled, and he desperately endured, "If it weren't for you, I would never know what that feeling is, and now you say you want to leave, my heart feels like being pierced by thousands of swords ,can not breathe……"

Zhuqing's eyes were surprised, she twitched her hand, but couldn't move.

Ji Chen said sadly: "People in the world say that I am a high-ranking monk who has no passion, no desires, extraordinary detachment, but it is not true, I am greedy, I am crazy, I think, everything is because of you... I can't promise Ah Qing what the future will be, but I don't want you to just leave it like this Leave, if it is destined to sever communication... then let us burn each other into the deepest part of our souls."

He stretched out the remaining hand, held Zhuqing's face, leaned over, and kissed Zhuqing lightly.

Jichen's body trembled violently, resisting the discomfort, put Zhuqing's hand on his face, and said softly: "I would rather be punished by the gods than regret for the rest of my life."

"Ji Chen! Ji Chen!" Zhu Qing burst into tears, and entangled him again, weeping like rain, "Let's leave, let's leave here, don't be a monk anymore, return to vulgarity and be an ordinary person, we Continue to visit mountains and rivers, eat delicacies from mountains and seas, please... please..."

"Ah Qing...I..." Before he finished speaking, the pain in his body finally tortured Jichen to the point of fainting.

Zhuqing hugged him tightly, picked him up, cried and laughed, and muttered to himself: "I'll take you away..."

It seemed as though she had exhausted all her strength in her confession, Zhuqing held Jichen in her arms and took every step, and she was on the verge of falling. The tears were not dry on her face, but she already put on a joyful smile that relieved her suspicions.

After a few steps, another person appeared in the forest. At first glance, it was Zhanming.

Zhuqing retracted her feet and became vigilant.

Zhan Ming didn't know how long he had been hiding, and he didn't get close at this moment, he just raised his hands and said, "Amitabha, where is the benefactor taking the poor monk's disciple?"

Zhanming's mana is profound, if he fights, he will be hard to beat, Zhuqing's hands are tight and tight, and he said defensively: "He has been trapped in Buddhism all his life, I will take him out of this cage, isn't the master trying to stop us?"

Zhan Ming showed a conciliatory smile, shook his head and said: "The benefactor can rest assured, the poor monk will not stop him, I just want to remind the benefactor, don't do anything impulsively."

Zhu Qing asked: "What do you mean by that?"

Zhan Ming said: "You and I both know that he is not a ruthless person. The apprentice has not agreed to leave just now. How to choose, the benefactor might as well wait for him to wake up and leave the decision-making power to him."

Zhuqing let go of her guard and said after consideration: "... yes, but he must stay with me until he wakes up."

Zhan Ming bowed and recited the Buddha's name, and slowly retreated: "The poor monk is waiting for the result at Chaohua Temple."

Zhan Ming took away a dozen young monks who were trapped in the formation, leaving only Zhu Qing and Ji Chen in the huge bamboo forest.

When Jichen woke up at night, Zhuqing said anxiously: "Let's leave, find a quiet place, and take care of your injuries."

Ji Chen was noncommittal, but said: "For so many years, you and I have hidden voices that are innumerable. Let's talk about it. I want to know more about you."

He asked Zhuqing several times, without mentioning anything about Chaohua. The two people who talked to each other were like so many close lovers in the world, whispering and laughing in low voices until late at night. Time is hard to be tight, and love is tossed and lingered all night.

It was pitch black before Lu Wanfeng's eyes, and the ambiguous voices that made people blush were blurred and unreal.

I don't know how long it took, the illusion was bright again, on the couch in the room, Jichen woke up first, sat up sideways, his eyes lingered deeply on Zhuqing's face, finally got up quietly and put on the jade pendant that Zhuqing had taken off. In the chest pocket, he left silently.

In the next second, Lu Wanfeng suddenly suffocated, stares flashed in his eyes, and his consciousness was blurred.

The author has something to say: due to various reasons, I have finally finished writing this part of the story in the illusion. Although I am not satisfied with the writing, I have written it according to the outline at the beginning. I have passed a big difficulty. Breathe a sigh of relief!