law of the dark side

Chapter 38 Confession

Bai Mo carried Su Chang'an into the villa. Su Chang'an was completely asleep at the moment, grinning slightly and snoring, murmuring a few unclear words from time to time.

It was almost 4 o'clock at this moment, and Bai Mo had just stepped on the stairs when he heard someone calling him downstairs. He turned his head and saw that Li Yan and Qin Yue, who were on duty in another area, had returned. Qin Yue saw that he was hugged by Bai Mo Su Changan, who was standing there, was startled.

"Chang'an has been carried back too many times..." Qin Yue sighed.

Li Yan touched Qin Yue's head with a smile, and said softly: "Xiao Yue, go wash and sleep, I'll go and see Chang'an."

"Why are you so late today? Don't you usually come back before two o'clock?" Li Yan followed Bai Mo into his room, and Bai Mo put Su Changan on the bed. Su Changan's face was pale, with a hint of drunkenness Red, looks a little unhealthy.Bai Mo straightened up, stared at him for a while, then turned to look at Li Yan.

"After the shift, I went to another place." Bai Mo said lightly.

"Drinking?"

"Su Chang'an drank some." Bai Mo said openly without hiding it.

Li Yan frowned: "Yinyue is coming soon. I estimate that Mu Sheng will notify him to prepare for the test in the next two days. He has never experienced it. He doesn't know. You should remind him."

"He can handle it," Bai Mo said.

Li Yan nodded. He also felt that with Su Changan's strength, he could handle any kind of test, but there are contingencies in everything, and no one can say for sure about mentality.After thinking about it for a while, Li Yan still asked, "Between you and Su Changan..."

"What did he tell you?" Bai Mo suddenly raised his head and stared at Li Yan.

Li Yan was stunned by Bai Mo's sharp gaze, and was slightly confused: "Didn't you say anything?"

"Then how do you know there's something going on between us?"

Li Yan burst out laughing: "Bai Mo, you can't do it, Su Changan has been here for almost a year, and it has been at least half a year for you, and anyone with a discerning eye in the villa can see it."

Bai Mo was stunned, there was surprise in his slightly narrowed eyes, more confusion.

Li Yan sighed: "I think, Su Changan must have never mentioned it to you. He may think that you don't like men, or you won't like him. But, think about it, Su Changan wants to get used to you all day long. The food is delicious. Serving you comfortably, even us have gained a lot of honor, don't you think he is just expressing his comradely love?"

"Su Chang'an mentioned it." Bai Mo suddenly said.

"what?"

"He mentioned it." Bai Mo frowned, as if he had encountered something very troublesome, and sat down on the sofa: "He just said that he was drunk."

Li Yan thought about the scene where Su Changan confessed his love while drunk. He was very happy at first, but when he thought that the object of his confession was Bai Mo, he felt that all the washing utensils had become cups. Guy, don't look at the usual cheerfulness, this time, I'm afraid I'm going to kick the iron plate.

"Then, can I ask, what do you think?" Li Yan hesitated for a while before asking.

Bai Mo was silent for a while.

What do you think?

If he were to be honest, it would be that he had no idea at all, and the feeling of being confessed was so strange that he couldn't think.

In this villa, everyone is in pairs. Bai Mo doesn't think there is anything wrong with being alone, but seeing that there is always a companion by his side, it would be an exaggeration to say that he is completely calm.

He is 22 years old this year. He joined the war at the age of 15. He has been born and died for seven years. As the sharp edge of the organization, he received an elite education arranged by the organization when he was a student. There is no familiar person.

Ever since Bai Lan's death, Bai Mo always felt that he would never be tempted by anyone again.And for five years, he did.His villa teammates cared for him with affection, but his heart was cold after all.

But here at Su Changan, there seemed to be a crack in his cold mask.

He can turn a blind eye to small care and thoughtfulness, because he is his partner, and he is always special to himself.But can the honest confession be regarded as not hearing it?

Is it really possible to prevaricate with a "drunk talk"?

Moreover, I have to admit that Su Chang'an's confession not only shocked Bai Mo, but also made him feel a sense of crisis. Although Su Chang'an seemed rough and follow the crowd, Bai Mo knew that if he really made up his mind "I don't want you anymore" is not just a drunken remark, Su Changan can do what he says.

If Su Chang'an really leaves him, doesn't want to be his partner, doesn't hang around every day, and doesn't babble to him about what to eat for supper, what to watch at night, what to watch... Bai Mo asked himself, can he get used to it?

If Su Chang'an is gone, to put it mildly, it's just that there are fewer people in this villa, but for Bai Mo, the little warmth he's finally gotten used to, the life he's adapted to, doesn't exist anymore.

"Su Chang'an said that he became stronger because of me." Just when Li Yan thought that Bai Mo would not speak anymore and was about to sneak away to accompany Qin Yue, Bai Mo, who had been silent for a long time, suddenly spoke: "He also said, I let him It’s hard. He said that I don’t understand anything, just because he likes me. But, after thinking about it carefully, I really didn’t ask him to do anything because he likes me. Before today, I really didn’t know that he liked me. I."

Li Yan didn't speak, waiting for Bai Mo's next words.He thought of Su Changan's little things about Bai Mo, and compared Bai Mo's dazed look at this moment, he felt that he could fully understand Su Changan's resentment.

"Say, shouldn't I like him too?" Bai Mo murmured in a low voice, not as if he was asking for Li Yan's opinion, but as if he was talking to himself.

"If you like this kind of thing, you should or shouldn't." Li Yan didn't know what to say. In fact, at this moment, he had already been defeated by Bai Mo's divine logic.

"I don't want to like someone, I don't want to like anyone." Bai Mo said: "But Su Changan said, if I don't like him, he will not want me."

Li Yan froze for a moment, then shivered suddenly.In the past six months or so, Bai Mo's state of mind has opened up a lot. In private, Mu Sheng also said that Bai Mo's ability to open his heart is of great benefit to his ability, and Su Chang'an has contributed a lot here.

It's just that Su Chang'an earned this credit with his own feelings. They are outsiders, so they don't want to comment too much. They have selfish intentions, and hope that the partnership between Su Changan and Bai Mo can be stable, and that they will continue to become stronger. The squadron is a great thing for the entire organization, but everyone knows that Su Changan has no obligation to love Bai Mo.

One-sided giving of feelings is a very tiring thing, and it takes a lot of hard work. Li Yan has experienced it before, so he has a deep understanding.For a long time, when he was watching from the sidelines, he always felt that Su Changan was very powerful, because Su Changan handled his feelings very well, and he always felt that Su Changan could see clearly what position he was in Bai Mo's heart, and he never had a deep feeling. trap.

But looking at the situation now, it turns out that Xiao Su is not without deep troubles, but has been suppressed all the time, and Bai Mo didn't feel that's all.

Li Yan scratched his head. In the villa, headed by Mu Sheng, everyone was emotionally inclined towards Bai Mo. After all, Bai Mo grew up in an organization. Also longer.So instinctively, when Su Chang'an's contribution makes Bai Mo's situation better, everyone will be delighted with the change of Bai Mo, and hope that Su Chang'an will treat Bai Mo better and better, and make Bai Mo stronger and stronger, instead ignoring Su Chang'an's feel.

Seeing the doubts and hesitation in Bai Mo's expression, Li Yan almost felt sorry for Su Chang'an. The most hurtful people are often not lies but the truth. Bai Mo's doubts and hesitation are not deliberate, which is why people are helpless.

Li Yan thought about his words and said, "About whether Su Changan wants you or not, I don't think you need to worry about it. The partner's contract can't be terminated by unilaterally, unless both of them are willing, and the organization also feels Only when it is necessary and in line with the principle of more optimal allocation will you agree to split your partner. Moreover, Su Changan became your eye, not just because he likes you. In this regard, you should have more confidence in Su Changan, he is an excellent Yan, he has performed very well since joining the war, you have to trust his understanding and awareness of the war, he will not leave you or the team because of personal feelings."

After listening to Li Yan's words, Bai Mo nodded, and the look in his eyes recovered a bit.He thought, what Li Yan said was very reasonable. No matter who Su Changan likes, he is his eyes now. This is an indisputable fact. As long as he keeps getting stronger and can protect him on the battlefield, he will not break up with him .

After tossing around for a while, it was almost five o'clock, and the dark sky was gradually dawning. After a few words of advice, Li Yan went back to his room to sleep with Qin Yue, but Bai Mo couldn't fall asleep anyway. Su Chang'an in the province, Bai Mo felt agitated for no reason.

When there is no "eye", I don't have any thoughts about the future, I just hope to go to the battlefield more while the blade's ability is still there, and dying on the battlefield is the best destination.Now that I have such a strong eye, the future seems to have unlimited possibilities, but why is there such a troublesome thing like "like" again?

Bai Mo took a bottle of mineral water from the refrigerator, closed the door and left the room, followed the escalator at the end of the second floor to the attic.

In Yinyue 12 years ago, his parents hid him here. In that battle, he lost his parents, and the attic was completely destroyed.When the villa was being rebuilt, some people said that the attic was useless and should not be used as an attic. He and his brother strongly opposed it. Later, the attic was rebuilt almost as it was before.

For the past 12 years, he has often nested in this attic. After Bailan died, every time he couldn't sleep at night, he liked to sit here.

Bai Mo opened the door of the attic, and a faint smell of dust rushed into his nostrils. After Bai Mo's calculations, it turned out that he hadn't come up for several months.The twilight of dawn leaked in from the window on a sloping wall of the attic, and there was a layer of dust floating on the window sill. Bai Mo found a cloth and wiped the window sill, and sat on the window to look out.

In the past, every time I looked out, because of the short intervals, I always felt that the scenery outside the window remained the same. However, when I looked out of the same window after half a year, I found that the abandoned factory building opposite had been demolished, and the original site was being built. In a public green space, several construction vehicles parked in the corner of the construction site in the morning light. The project has been more than half completed, and the luxuriant grass has begun to appear.

Ever since he partnered with Su Changan, he has hardly come to this attic again, and the lonely feeling of sitting here alone has faded a lot. Over the years, that lonely feeling has not only worried him, but also supported With his motivation to live, now, he suddenly feels that life has become much richer, leaving him almost no time to be lonely.

He knew that these slight and drastic changes in his life were all because of Su Changan, but he was unable to judge whether these changes were right or wrong.