Demon folding

Chapter 24: Don't Be A Monster

In the end he reached out and pushed me.

Grabbing his hem, I didn't back away, and lightly pressed on him, looking down at those hidden and dodging eyes, I couldn't tell whether it was bitterness and sadness or joy, I just felt that after a heart-changing friendship, I was actually Lost so early.

"Monster, I was just not careful..."

Before the words were finished, his light eyes suddenly turned cold, and before he had time to be surprised, the person followed him and stood up, and was immediately pulled into his arms and tightly covered.

When it was close to his heart, his breathing was mixed with the sound of his heartbeat, and I listened carefully with my heartstrings tensed, as if a heavy soldier who had left hurriedly left and returned.

"What's the matter?" Xu Shi was a little embarrassed, and he asked very coldly.

"My lord Qi, as you expected, it was the southwestern side where something went wrong, followed by chaos in Que Botai, and several Huozheng lords have already gone to deal with it first." The armor knelt on the snow, making crackling noises.

Hearing the word Que Botai, the strings in my heart became tighter, I clutched his front lapel, thinking about the use in confusion.

When I woke up, I didn't have time to ask him about the situation of Que Botai, and I don't know what is the situation of the Tsing Yi Mountain Charm. Hearing it now, no matter how unbearable and patient I am, I am worried.

My breathing was disturbed, he noticed it, he stretched out his hand from the outside of the big arm with small movements, patted on my back to comfort me, and said coldly, "You wait at the palace gate, Gu will come right away. "

"Yes."

The armor bumped, and the soldiers hurried away again, coming and going for a while, as if only a sudden cold wind swept through, and they disappeared immediately.

The surroundings became quiet, I pushed Da Hui to look at him, before he could say anything, he came in softly, "He Yong and that Shan Mei are fine, don't worry."

"What happened that day?" I was worried about it, but not very scared.

He raised his hand to cover my hood, "After I scattered the physical bodies of those ancient beasts, they could only remain as chaotic energy, and it would take a long time to gather usable matter and recover the physical body by relying on the law of dependence on all things I don’t know what’s different about you, but you can ignore the invisibility of the essence, not only can step into their aura at will, but also see their essence body.”

"I?"

My doubts increased greatly. I remembered that Huo Zhengsan had also said something strange, so I couldn't help interrupting him and asked, "How could I be different? What's the difference? Don't you even know?"

He shook his head, and said earnestly and doubtfully, "You are indeed different, maybe it was because of the difference that Xie Fusheng was so cruel beforehand. As for why this happened, I can't figure it out, after all, Ah Ning used to... "

He paused suddenly and looked over his eyes carefully.

Knowing that he is afraid that I will be jealous of Aning, he will feel unhappy, but at this critical moment, how can I mess around, and asked anxiously, "How is she?"

He took a breath and saw that I didn't show any signs of anger, so he said, "A Ning was born in the heart of chaos, and because of my greed, I woke up A Ning from a deep sleep. Hurt. At that time, my mind was on the verge of death, and I brought her back to the cold and silent abyss, but I just wanted to return her body after death, and I didn't want to form a deeper evil relationship because of it."

Is it evil?

I was dazed, and the mural description came vaguely. I searched through it, but I couldn't find any trace of Aning, so I asked him vaguely, "Did she... miss you at that time?" ..."

"Yes." He sighed lightly, guilt was greater than pity, and he laughed at himself, "It's a pity that at that time, I only cared about my own affairs, and I didn't realize that Aning had this kind of thought for me. As for the many wrong things you did later, not only disrupted the fundamental principles of heaven and earth, but also made everything unsafe."

He suddenly sneered, "It's ridiculous that I don't realize how difficult what I have done."

This smile is extremely cold and intimidating, as if he hated himself to the extreme, if there were not some unfinished business pulling him, he probably would have been unwilling to live long ago.

Realizing that he hated me so much, I was both afraid and distressed.

"In order to dissolve the karma and evil that I created, she forcibly incarnated to protect the balance of the chaotic world, and then disappeared. I have been looking for her for a long time, and I have experienced many unwillingness and disappointment, but I still haven't found her." I found her. Not only could I not find her, but I also couldn’t figure out what kind of balance I should seek between her and me in order to achieve the perfection of each other’s minds, let alone why she would… why would she Think of me like that, the most sinful me in the universe..."

It seemed that he had opened the most untouchable deep taboo in his heart, and he was in great pain.

The pain made him miserable and he couldn't get rid of it. His confused eyes were hidden through the eyeliner, and they burst out eagerly, as if they wanted to see Aning through me, and he murmured inexplicably, "Why, why you You have to be like those people...like Aning...why bother to miss me...what's so good about me...what's worth it..."

Seeing his inexplicable pain, I am also in great pain, not only because of his fateful inexplicable words, but also because of the struggle and confusion in his words.

I couldn't bear to stand on tiptoe and hug him, and let him understand with a gesture close to my heart that I was just the one who moved my mind first, and I was already in the balance between the two hearts, and my body and mind went deeper, how could I care about it? What is the reason for this.

"If you read it, then you have read it. There is no clear reason. If you can think clearly, why can't you understand it in such a long time? It's all because of you You have already made up your mind to enter the game, so you can't see clearly and think clearly from the body of watching chess."

He was panting eagerly, and there was a faint cry. The corners of my eyes were jerky, and I hurriedly suppressed my breath, "There is no relative in the world, and there is no right or wrong. According to your previous words, you should be based on people and judge by people. If you use a demon, you will be confused by a demon. She is her, and you are also you. You and her have staggered each other's destiny, but believe in your own heart. One wrong and one right are just balance. What is unbalanced is nothing but What I asked for did not reach the desire of my heart. It is this unwillingness that may be left with me in the future, but so what? I still have to face it and bear myself The cause and effect of doing it?"

"cause and effect?"

He raised his head, his anxious eyes were even more puzzled, and gradually he turned his head away as if understanding, and muttered to himself, "Yes, it's all because of my mistakes that brought about this situation. it's me……"

In the chaos, he pushed me away, pulled back suddenly, stopped me from approaching and said coldly, "It's cause or effect, I shouldn't force it anymore, and you don't have to make mistakes because of my unwillingness. After all, what I care about is always Aning, not you!"

I immediately froze in place. Seeing that he was clearly alienated, I felt that the world was collapsing, and I was falling infinitely, and my bones were also frozen.

Kong Wu's hands slowly clenched and fell, he couldn't gather the emptiness in his heart at all, he wanted to say something to stop his alienation, but how could he say one or two sentences with clear reason?

How can I compare to Aning who he has been chasing for so long!

His deeply hidden eye locks were even deeper, and the words that came out of his mouth were so light that it didn't seem like he was talking to me.

"You don't have to give up on yourself, it's because I'm not good, it's because I can't figure it out..."

I came back to my senses, and thought for a moment full of bitterness, and I was shocked to realize that before I had time to think about it, the words I followed my heart more or less conformed to the principles taught by my husband, those mysterious and mysterious things that I didn’t understand at first. The truth suddenly became very transparent.

Struggling with nothing to think about, I said bitterly, "It's okay if you don't want to delay me, but I didn't want to...I just read it for some reason...Is it to blame you for giving me the wrong care for Aning, or to blame me? I don’t live up to my expectations? Obviously I should hate you like I hate Jie Fusheng, I hate you for taking away my great Song Dynasty, I hate you for ruining the peace of countless people, and I also hate you for bewitching my father...but how can I hate you... Do I hate you for messing with me so that I can never turn back, or should I hate myself for being stupid..."

Tears fell down, scorching hot across my cheeks, and I met him sourly and helplessly, but he was still hiding no emotion, a burst of shame, anger and resentment welled up, I turned and left.

Turning around was filled with endless grievances, wiped away the unstoppable tears on the back of his hand, and forced himself to sneer, "Poor me, I was so happy that I saw a dream of heavy snow, but I still dreamed that it was you... you were the one who carried the Tsing Yi hairband , stepping into a dream I shouldn't have after a long absence... Those snows are so beautiful..."

"What did you say!" The other person suddenly hugged me, hugged me tightly, and said anxiously, "What did you say, what a dream!"

I sneered and broke his tight fingers, but he turned around and pressed my shoulder tightly, making it impossible to avoid his nervous gaze.

Facing his bewildered eyes, seeing their unbelievable surprises, my heart was even more chilled.

"I said, I'm dreaming. A dream shouldn't have a heart, nor should it have a heart, let alone you and me. The dream should be like Mr., wake up because you haven't woken up, it doesn't matter if it's a butterfly or me, but It's just a dream, it can't be fake, and it can't be real. If it's real, then you won't be able to tell if it's a butterfly or me... Such a chaotic thing, only a fool would do it..."

"A...Zhexia..." He grabbed my hand, and the pressure on his fingertips hurt me.

I suddenly felt sorry for him, and looked at him sneeringly and said, "Look at you, you clearly want to be firm and stick to your own heart, why do you want to disturb me unintentionally? You have lived for so many years, you should If you have been in a big dream, don’t you understand that what I said in a big dream is nothing more than truth and falsehood, so why make it true?”

"I didn't... think you were a fake!" He eagerly suppressed my sneer, his eyebrows were genuine.

I don't know what my words in the dream reminded him of, as if I really judged that I was Aning. Fortunately, I am not a stupid person, even if my thoughts are with him, I will not lose myself completely.

He was too serious, which made me think even more clearly, even if my heart is with him in this life, I can't compare to Aning's weight in his heart.A wave of utter boredom hit me, and I didn't want to have any more difficult entanglements with him.

"You are you, she is her, and I am me. Even if we have a big dream together, we are always going to different places. Those who are related and irrelevant can't escape the situation of waking up. Coincidentally, I wake up first, and I don’t want to be a dream again. As for you, how long you want to linger in the dream is not something I should care about, and it’s something I can’t care about. It’s fine if you don’t understand it. If you don't understand, Ah Ning is afraid that she will be completely heartbroken. She misses you deeply, and she won't let her down even if she misses you, right? "

I have made up my mind, and I have spoken clearly, he should understand every word.

The bottom of his eyes gradually dimmed, Xiao Suo slipped his hands sadly and backed away.

The hand slid away, the pain in the shoulder was still there, compared with what I felt in my heart, I couldn't tell whether it was calm or empty, seeing him stand still coldly, but the bottom of his eyes were very clear.

I can't guess why his change came about, and I don't want to guess. Now that they have nothing to do with each other, what else can I say?

"I can't figure it out, but it doesn't mean I don't want to figure it out. It's with Aning, it's with you, and it's the same with you. Right now, Que Botai still has important matters to deal with. I should have gone earlier, and I should have sent you back earlier. I can't bear to delay until now, I can't stay any longer."

"If you have something to do, you should go early."

I was disappointed in the end, and just wanted to walk sideways. He took a step forward solemnly, and spoke softly, like a gust of wind blowing past his ears, and immediately swept away the restless heart.

"Don't let your mind cool down. When I come back, I will always have an explanation with you."

He was serious and serious, but I wanted to laugh, but I am not an exaggerated person after all, so I suppressed my pitiful and ridiculous heart, and said calmly, "I don't know what skills you have, and I don't know what the situation is at Que Botai, but you said Those mountain spirits are all trying to deal with you, so just...be careful."

He narrowed his eyes, turned into tenderness, stepped forward, stretched out his hands to straighten my clothes, and said without any suspicion, "I don't know what will happen when I go here, there are always some impatient people and things in the palace. , I let Qing'er stay here, whoever sees it by your side will at least be more peaceful and not dare to cause any trouble rashly."

I don't have the energy to distinguish what his sudden natural closeness means, and I really don't want to think about it. I let him take care of his clothes with numb brows, the cold fragrance is strong, and my mind is heavy. Go to sleep now.

"If you're bored, it's okay. I've stopped Xie Fusheng to send people from Mengcheng Temple, and I've got those who are available to pick up the bamboo slips. They should be there in a few days."

As he spoke naturally, my heart instantly collapsed into a bottomless hole, I raised my eyebrows and locked those calm and natural eyes, catching the inverted outline at the bottom of his eyes, I don't know if I was looking at him or myself.

There is something hidden in the heart, but if you really want to make a clear appearance, you can't describe it.

It was clear that he was right in front of my eyes.

I think I really want to bury this monster deep in my heart, so that even if I can't have anything to do with him in the future, I can keep him in my heart from now on, so that I can cherish it carefully.

"Shi Huan, I don't know your real face, I don't know whether you are a man or a woman, and I don't know much about your past, but you...you have to believe me..."

Believe me, I really miss you.

Even if the so-called transaction still exists, I really miss you.

His hands rested on his lapel, not like Jie Fusheng's well-defined joints, but rather slender and delicate, he kept fastening the brocade belt around his neckline before straightening his figure, looked at me for a long time, and responded softly up.

"I believe."

My frozen heart was finally warmed and softened. I hugged him, calmly stood on tiptoe, and said firmly against his ear, "That's good."

He hugged me back in a comforting manner, still politely alienated, and said softly, "Wait for me to come back."

"it is good."

I complied, but my heart was chilled by his alienation after all, it was the indifference to retreat to leave, the skirt of my clothes was grabbed by him, I fell into his arms and was hugged tightly, all the warmth from my ears was him sighed softly.

"wait for me."

Wait?

How long can I wait?

Undeniably sarcastically pulling his lips, he lowered his eyes and pushed him, "Go."

He nodded and let me go.

Leng Xiang disappeared from my side, I was very sour, and I chased after him, just in time to meet his looking back.

It was as if the fine snow fell directly on my heart, and it was so shocking that my soul returned to its place. I finally understood...I was actually afraid of him leaving.

Startled, he smiled lightly.

He was also startled, his eyes were narrowly hidden behind the snow, he really couldn't see clearly, even when he turned around and walked into the vast snowy night, it was vague and hazy.

He was still disappearing, until the black and red royal robe completely disappeared, his empty heart was suddenly squeezed into one place, and the pain was so painful that he chased half a step away, and he stopped rationally and stiffly, and his heart also Then froze.

I am not a weak person, but I have tolerated my indulgence.Turning around numbly, he slowly wiped away the tears on his face step by step.